Hey there stranger. I've been away for a while, I know. I wouldn't have been if I had a laptop but apparently It's not important enough to get fixed. Oh well...
My cousin has let me borrow hers until tomorrow night. It's weird typing after such a long time on a phone.
I've been busy these past few weeks. In February, I went to see All Time Low. They are AMAZING live and incredibly funny. Life's been okay.
But my school are pissing me off. How do they expect us to do well with a new cirriculum and exams when half of them have NO CLUE as to what they're doing. It's stupid and idiotic. They can't really think that everything will be fine, can they? All this talk of preperation for exams and such when they aren't even prepared themselves! Hypocrites...
Other than that though... I haven't felt as bad as usual sometimes, but other times, I feel ten times worse. I want to write stories and fics so badly. But i feel that everything I write is exactly the same as the thing before, same style and everything. It's boring me and making me feel like shit. And I keep fantasising. My whole life revolves around books and stories, vampires and werewolves, sorcerers and mages. Everywhere I look, all I can think is; "That would be an awesome name for..." or "I am **Insert fictional character** from **Insert fictional book**" I can't help it. It just happens.
And don't even get me started on my ever-deteriorating social life. I haven't seen one of my best friends out of school for months. The rest of us call him 'Harry the Hibernating Hermit Hamster' and the funny thing is, he isn't even called Harry. What pisses me off further is that he is also the guy I like. He doesn't even text me anymore and it frustrates me just as much as it hurts me. Why he's being such a dick about everything, I don't know. One of my other best friends goes out drinking ALL THE TIME. He's 14 for gods sake! It happens nearly every week. Sure I get drunk sometimes, but every week? That's alcoholism. I've drank a few times to escape this shitty world, and I sure as hell don't get caught. Unlike him... He's nearly been lifted, he's been banned from the centre and he's been grounded. My final best friend has been a bit of a bitch lately. So have I, but seriously, she fucking ignores me. And expects me to come out when she wants me to. I have stuff to do and refuse her sometimes then she complains. Well I do apologise, I should just drop my homework, my writing, my meal, just because you want me to. No, I don't think so.
This is what I mean't in the last post! I'm bitching about my best friends ffs! Why am I such a bitch?
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